I don’t know why, but I remembered you tonight.
I remembered those few nights we shared under the stars.
I remembered how good it felt to be in your arms, how it felt like everything was going to be okay.
I even remembered how you would kiss me on the forehead then put your hand around my waist to pull me closer to kiss me on the lips.
I actually smiled.
But then I remembered.
I remembered how you never came back.
I remembered how you never answered my messages or ever visited again like you promised.
I remembered how your Christmas present just collected dust in my room and how I eventually just threw it out. I’m not even sure what the present was anymore.
But most of all, I remembered how you uttered those words that night. That last night.
I just can’t give you what you want.
And with that you left. You hugged me tight and gave me a kiss. And that was that.
I thought I would hear from you again. But I never did.
I wasn’t even sure what you meant. You couldn’t give me what I wanted? What did I want? I’m not even sure. All I know is that I was happy.
And I hope you were, too.
I guess you could say that it was all just bad timing for the both of us. I guess I shouldn’t be sad that it’s over. I should be happy that it happened at all.
And I was. I am.
And I hope you were…are, too.
For some strange reason, I remembered.